The Gemini Within
So those that know me know that today is my birthday. But alas, those that know me know that I was unwilling to celebrate this day, because as I am sure you know it was exactly one month ago TODAY, that I lost my best friend and mom.
So I have been thinking about this for the last month, and all I can think of is every year I celebrate with her(because her b-day is June 11,was I mean) so we always partied together. But every year at midnight, no matter where I was or what we where doing she would always say "Happy Birthday Alexis, you know that you where my birthday present and that's what I celebrate every year!" and then she would smile and give me a kiss and huge hug.
Well the only smile this year is in a picture, and the only hug is in my heart, but I know that no matter where she is right now, at midnight tonight, she was saying that too me, and giving me a huge hug and kiss, whether I could feel it or not.
So I have decided that although it will be hard to smile today, and harder still to think of a year ahead without her(let alone the rest of my life) I will be proud, and I will do my best to celebrate my birthday, for her. Because I know that she would want that.
As usual, I miss you mom. And forever I will be lost without you, but I know that you are looking thru the holes in the floor of heaven (or whever you are) and still taking care of us..
I love you mom, I'm glad that I was you're birthday present!!!!!!!!
So I have been thinking about this for the last month, and all I can think of is every year I celebrate with her(because her b-day is June 11,was I mean) so we always partied together. But every year at midnight, no matter where I was or what we where doing she would always say "Happy Birthday Alexis, you know that you where my birthday present and that's what I celebrate every year!" and then she would smile and give me a kiss and huge hug.
Well the only smile this year is in a picture, and the only hug is in my heart, but I know that no matter where she is right now, at midnight tonight, she was saying that too me, and giving me a huge hug and kiss, whether I could feel it or not.
So I have decided that although it will be hard to smile today, and harder still to think of a year ahead without her(let alone the rest of my life) I will be proud, and I will do my best to celebrate my birthday, for her. Because I know that she would want that.
As usual, I miss you mom. And forever I will be lost without you, but I know that you are looking thru the holes in the floor of heaven (or whever you are) and still taking care of us..
I love you mom, I'm glad that I was you're birthday present!!!!!!!!
posted by Hope | 6/06/2005
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