My Warped Ideas

This is a site about the struggle's I have in my life. Thru it all, I hold out for one thing, HOPE. Thru all the darkness and when the light seems to be ever fading, I hold HOPE close to me, knowing that it alone, will guide my heart. JUST WHEN WE THINK IT WON'T HAPPEN, LIFE SUDDENLY STARTS AGAIN!!

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Location: Ontario, Canada

This is all about me, in the words that follow I show my struggle's, my fear's, my pain. Yet through it all, I hold out. For I believe there is one thing, that is always eternal in me, and that is my hope. My hope that through all the darkness, when light seems to be ever fading that no matter what way I turn I feel only coldness, I hold hope close to my soul, knowing that it alone, will guide me. That no matter the stuggle's, I have an angel that sits on my shoulder, and speaks quietly in my ear. I know that although I feel alone, I will never be.

9.30.2005

Week what is it

Well it is now, somewhere in the first month of my new life, and boy have I stirred the pot. I have wanted for so long to just clear the air , and deal with a few things that needed boot kicking, and I did, tonight. How that will all come out in the wash, I have no idea. Not even hazarding a guess, not even a hope. And I am all about the HOPE!! His face was shocked and I felt so juvenile, handing him this folded up letter, that I have folded into so many folds that it will take a week just to unfold, the folds. Maybe I did that on purpose, more denial. I told the truth, according to me. I guess that's really all that matters, is that when I lie down at night, can I sleep with what I did. With the things I said in that letter? I think so.
There was nothing hard, or strong about the words I used. I just put pen in hand, and hand to paper and let them fight it out. My heart and head, always seem secondary. I read what I write after I am done and sometime think, "Damn, did I say that!"" I will be so sorry if I have made an error, but the unknown, like life is short, undetermined and run by a bunch of Elves living under my stairs!!!

Thieving Bastards,, stay out of the cupboards!!

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