The Question Remains

So the question remains, what's next?
How do I proceed with the next step of this thing called life?
I have recently been lost as to what comes next, which path is right.
How do I know what is too come, how does anyone, and although I claim that
I want to know what the next step is, most of me doesn't.
I have a need to know that I will not spend my life alone, but the journey is what I am unsure of.
Do I want to know what lies next, do I really need to know which bridge to jump from,
and which to walk away from.
If I know this, what excitement is there left.
What joy and heartache is left?
The adventure of life, is what makes life worth anything.

I am like everyone else, I do not want to be alone.
I fear that I will grow old alone.
I fear that no one will love me, just me.
The happy me, the upside down me, the crazy me, the sad me...
All of me, the good and the bad.
But I am not alone in this wish, we all hope that we are not alone.
That no matter what we have someone to call friend, to hold us and call us lover.
Someone to please, to make happy, someone to share children with, to grow old with.

No one wants to be alone.
Even those that claim they like to be alone, they don't.
No one wants to feel unwanted, unloved, replaceable.
I am undeniably alone in this world, whether that is of my own doing or not, I will never really know.
I hope that I can change, I hope that I can find my other half, my lost soul-mate.
I believe that he is there, I hope that he is looking for me as well.
But when do I get to know?
When is that secret revealed to me.