What Becomes of the Broken Hearted

What becomes of a heart that is fractured, how many times before it never recovers. I have had my heart broken, more than I care to recall, and with every fall, does you're heart(and soul) retreat deeper inside oneself?
My life as of late, has been horrible, and yet I still have the one thing that I can not seem to lose, hope.
hope that one day the hole left by the loss of my mom, won't be so huge.
hope that someday I will see every beautiful Island I told her I would see.
hope that I won't be in pain forever(physically) that they will find a cure for nerve damage.
hope that somewhere out there, my soulmate waits for me, that he is as scarred and bruised from this journey that we sometimes call life, as me.
hope that all the children, that my brother and sisterinlaw have, are healthy and happy.
hope that someday so is he.
hope that without a doubt I WILL NOT be alone in this war zone I call life, forever.
hope that someday, in another life I will see my mom again, and that in that life, we are both healthy, happy and rich beyond belief

And even though my hope is challenged, and I see that there is less and less to be hopeful for, I just can't let go of this feeling that hope, will get me through it all. That no matter how long the wait is for my Prince Charming, that eventually he will find me. I won't be sitting in some tower waiting, nor will I be covered with glass. I will be living my life the best way I know how, I just hope, that he likes the water!

Too all those that have had thier hearts destroyed, believe me , tomorrow the sun will shine, and although you may feel like life will never be okay again, it will. Because no matter the loss, no matter the tragedy, life, in all its glory and sadness, it's immeasurable love and devasting losses, it still moves on.

Day by day.......... the sun will rise, the moon will set, and we will be okay

My Year

You Were Actually Born Under:

You are solid, methodical, and you do things right the first time. Even when no one else does, you always believe in yourself. You tend to see the world in black and white, right or wrong. A good memory and eye for details means you tend to thrive at near impossible tasks. You are most compatible with a Snake or Rooster.

You Should Have Been Born Under:

Resourceful and practical, you are a quick thinker. You are very observant - and it's hard to get anything past you! A total perfectionist, you are especially picky about looking your best. You're a big dreamer - such a big dreamer that reality can disappoint you. You are most compatible with an Ox or Snake.

What Year Were You Born Under?

My English

Your Linguistic Profile:

55% General American English

20% Yankee

10% Dixie

10% Upper Midwestern

5% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Well well .....

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Kissing...What Me!!!!

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Fun for a change

I have decided to do a bunch of these silly little tests. They are for fun and some are actually pretty accurate, which one's will leave you guessing!!

The True Me.....Maybe

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies.

You think good luck will definitely be yours, someday.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.

Who's the True You?

My Home World

You Are From Neptune

You are dreamy and mystical, with a natural psychic ability. You love music, poetry, dance, and (most of all) the open sea. Your soul is filled with possibilities, and your heart overflows with compassion. You can be in a room full of friendly people and feel all alone. If you don't get carried away with one idea, your spiritual nature will see you through anything.

What Planet Are You From?

The Gemini Within

So those that know me know that today is my birthday. But alas, those that know me know that I was unwilling to celebrate this day, because as I am sure you know it was exactly one month ago TODAY, that I lost my best friend and mom.
So I have been thinking about this for the last month, and all I can think of is every year I celebrate with her(because her b-day is June 11,was I mean) so we always partied together. But every year at midnight, no matter where I was or what we where doing she would always say "Happy Birthday Alexis, you know that you where my birthday present and that's what I celebrate every year!" and then she would smile and give me a kiss and huge hug.
Well the only smile this year is in a picture, and the only hug is in my heart, but I know that no matter where she is right now, at midnight tonight, she was saying that too me, and giving me a huge hug and kiss, whether I could feel it or not.
So I have decided that although it will be hard to smile today, and harder still to think of a year ahead without her(let alone the rest of my life) I will be proud, and I will do my best to celebrate my birthday, for her. Because I know that she would want that.

As usual, I miss you mom. And forever I will be lost without you, but I know that you are looking thru the holes in the floor of heaven (or whever you are) and still taking care of us..

I love you mom, I'm glad that I was you're birthday present!!!!!!!!